reporting infront of my lappy,with eyes wide open after sipping onto redbull.
my speakers coughing loudly [The Script-Walk away],
My hands are cold, my body's numb
Im still in shock, what have you done?
My head is pounding, my visions blurred
Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word
And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin
For the entry point, where love went in
And ricoshad and bounced around
And left a hole, when you walked out
while listening to those words. I just smile and imagine if those words effects me.
and it does,
once upon a time.when i dont feel loved and feel lonely.
the Lonely Dewi.the one that no one will understands and never be loved.
and i just hate her.once Upon a time ago
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the real question is..What is love?
its still a confusing term that really blur my mind in someways that i could not describe.
is love depends in how many boyfriends did u have in your past times?
nope,i hope not.
all i know that love happens once in my life.
and its a crazy thing.cuz im not my self~ the self centred Wyt transformed into a sacrificing for others type of person
what are the symptoms of my transformation:
[dun compare me rite now..this is my history]
- Excessive TEXTING and Skype (24 hours updating my status for him) e.g: "syg...org tga lipat baju ni..syg lipat baju gak k??"----+_+(when i remember this.i still laugh..ROFL)
- Always remember him no matter what i do. (espeacially when he's out of credit.yup,that time i will be so anxious and stare at the wall for half an hour and imagining what the hell is he's doing over there)
- Smiling all to my self and sometimes i just laugh suddenlly. - thinking about the silly things that he ever done will always make me laugh suddenly
- Sometimes, as passerby passes in front of me. i would just stare at them and notices that they got similar faces as him...[the truth is..thier not.i just have high volume of imagination]
- im not active anymore~always have the same schedule.and everything includes texting,talking and just smiling for there is someone who cares and love you no matter what you do.
but,
there's a saying:
"too much of something is not good"
when i flashback my 6 month of life that passes bye infront of me. im not regretting it not any ounce of it.eventhough my friends is really annoyed with my anthem.. whats the best of it.im always smiling for no other reason.
im smiling sincerely and happy as i ever be.never was im cheerful like that in my entire life.eventhough
my friends say im crazy,but in my heart i know im happy as ever.and i never regret it
All i know,love only comes once ..
but that doesnt mean that the second one will never come forever.
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and im still hoping,if the second one comes with a ring on my finger and a smiling face for a photo beside my lucky mr.right..
